“So it’s been 20 years since Brandon past and I find myself in a place of sadness. Thinking back to all the silly things we joked about and how wonderful of a man he was, makes me tear up. It was such a loss for the whole world and I can’t seem to get to a point of acceptance. I realize that’s a long time to not get over someone’s death but I just can’t. I feel like he had so much more to do on this planet. I feel like I needed to know him more. Like his Mom should have had grandchildren and his fiance’ should be able to celebrate their 20th year anniversary. It’s just not right and I guess that is why I fight with it in my head. I am still not ready to let him go. We got so close on set he felt like family. He was the first actor to greet me on set and the nicest person to work with. It that with certain deaths we just can’t get over it? Is it the way they died or just who they were? Or is it what they meant to you, or a combination of all of them? I am trying to process through all my emotions and its hard but I am doing it little by little. After Brandon’s death I went into hiding and wanted nothing to do with that industry. After all they were the reason a very dear friend was gone. I know it was an accident but mistakes can always happen. What’s to say something like that could happen to me. Well it almost did on that set and yet another reason I was shifty about Hollywood. Seemed like their bottom line was the most important thing rather than safety of people. It meant putting my personal safety up for cash and that’s just not me. But back to Brandon..
I get a lot of questions about Brandon and let me just say he was one of the kindest and loving people I have ever met. Working with him was amazing. He taught me a lot. We had personal discussions and sometimes we talked about work. But I spent about 3 straight months with him on and off of course. Out of all the cast members I spent the most time with him. I love when people ask if I worked with him…. It’s so funny, I always think of course I worked with him. You’ve seen the movie right? Anyway I wanted to dedicate this and the next year to Brandon’s memory. He was an incredible human being and I miss him so. So RIP Brandon, I will always love you. Whatever is after this place I hope you are there so I can see you again. Even if just in spirit and energy.”
- Rochelle Davis (Sarah from The Crow)
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No matter how many times I see this, the last two lines always take my breath away
Is it healthy? Of course not. Do I regret it? Nope. I still tracked and have a buttload of weeklies left as well and activity points to use up tomorrow. Moderation is key, and I’m learning that.
My stomach is definitely shrinking, my butt is lifting, and my double chin is almost gone! I’m on week two of turbo fire and I love it! So proud I’ve stayed on schedule for two weeks.
As far as weight watchers, I’ve kicked ass this week! My stepmom got me a bunch of veggies, and even though it’s kind of bad, I barely touched any activity or weekly points. So, I can splurge a bit this weekend and not feel bad! I really wish I had started this sooner, but I’m glad my parents are being supportive. I can’t wait until my weigh in on Sunday!
if you don’t care, just skip past this.
Seriously, I am loving the changes in this program. I had tried the old points program, and didn’t have success because I felt like I was starving.
The points plus program doesn’t make me feel that way at all! Now, I am adjusting and getting used to smaller portions, being aware of how much is enough.
The fact that I lost 4.6 pounds in a week is so encouraging and makes me feel like I’m doing something right! I’ve never had a loss like that in a week, and I never felt hungry.
I’m also not feeling deprived. Tonight I’m going out for ice cream, and I’m still within my daily points.
My goal for this week is to hit my daily target and eat breakfast more, because I have a habit of not doing that and having lots of points left over at night.
I’m so happy I decided to give this program a chance. I can feel great things coming my way!